Thursday, October 14, 2010

6-13-10

6-13-10

So did you all have a lovely weekend? I surely enjoyed my trip to Figment on Governor's Island. So many lovely talented people there; actors and singers and dancers and musician’s and art sculptures and well it was just amazing the beautiful things that the UN-fettered spirit inside a person can create! I often feel saddened for those who have great poems, great music, great art inside of them. There truly is a struggle in life for them, a struggle between living a carefree life and doing what they LOVE, what they were sent here to do, and living a life stifled by conformity and capitalism. I have met people like this and when I do I do all I can to encourage them to never forget to express their talents.

While at this event one such friend came to mind, I truly missed him and wished he was there as I knew he would have thoroughly enjoyed the experience. As a matter of fact I must have been thinking about him so hard that he called! I missed the call but returned it but after asking how I was enjoying myself he became what I perceived to be quite cranky and ended the call abruptly. This haunted me the rest of the day as we have been having many less than pleasant interchanges as of late. I pretty much decided that despite the fact that I missed this person tremendously I just needed to forget, at least for now, that he existed. I confess I have a lot of anger about how things are with us at the moment, I worry that he’s listening to others instead of God and they all have a crabs-in a bucket dynamic going on but thinking too much on it I know won’t help and will only rob me of the present moment so I made up my mind that I was going to be grateful that I had other people in my life to do the things with me this summer that I had planned to do with him --when you free yourself from your cage of self-doubt there really is and endless supply of adventures out there and people to share them with!

But I digress----anyway while on the train ride home I looked out and written across a train car were words that related to this person in my life, and immediately my heart softened, and I realized that once again the powers above were reminding me to stick with the friend and the project we shared. I said goodbye to my friends and headed home and my phone rang! It was the friend who I had been thinking about, the one who earlier in the day I had decided the next time he called I just wasn’t going to pick up…..he said you called… I said NO I didn’t…he said yes you did…..but remember how I told you my blue-tooth hides in the bottom of my purse? Well sometimes it makes phone calls too, only to this one person though LOL but anyway he was quite pleasant on the phone and I quickly forgave and forgot and when I looked at my phone I saw that just about the time I had seen the train cars and re-decided to stay his friend is the time my phone called him. I know there are some who don’t get this friendship but as I have told him many times…I SEE you, I see inside and I know who you are on a level that others can't and I know that it’s a gift from God to have this type of sight I take no glory for it trust me. And I know what a blessing you are…

And just to illustrate and confirm this point, today when I went to Mass the Homily was about Jesus and the time the woman washed his feet with her tears and dried them with her hair and Simon Peter said if he knew who she was he wouldn’t allow her to touch him…..and Jesus said it is you who do not SEE her, not I for she has great faith and seeks forgiveness with her whole heart. He also told the story of if a man owes 50 and another owes you 500 and you forgive the dept of both whom do you think will be more grateful. Thus is it with love, the harder the person may be to love, the greater the reward to not only you and to them but to the world……every soul you love a little or a lot is a blessing to the collective. So do have patience with everyone, and show love and friendship because you don’t know what's there under the surface of the hurt and the pain. Even if they act like they don’t want you to be there trust me if they keep showing up, even if just to growl sometimes, they want you near. Ahhhh the signs, guideposts and confirmations are always there…………

Love, Cassie

PS
I almost forgot something else! While on the island we were walking along and I saw a lady with a huge pink flamingo hat on her head and as I was walking towards them I said loudly to my friends (I was married to an Italian who was the oldest of 10, I learned to be quite loud LOL) ooh ooh look at the Pink Flamingo how awesome is that! And the lady just giggled and blushed and I said to her come on now you didn't think you were going to wear a pink flamingo on your head and not get noticed did you?? But I could tell she was pleased also with the attention.....so remember to wear your pink flamingos, shine your lights, and be SEEN! When you let go with total abandonment you will be loved! Trust me! The world is waiting to see who you REALLY are!!
deborah cox -nobody's supposed to be here



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