7-16-10

7-16-10

Well this week has been a bit of a roller coaster ride of ups and downs and twists and turns and this process isn’t over yet! But I do know deep in my spirit that this is all part of a very important process. Myself and those around me who are “in tune” are going through some very interesting times right now, thinking, deciding, planning, learning, growing. As I told my friend Debbie at dinner on Wednesday night, first you have to conceptualize the plan in your head, form your dreams and goals, and then the next step is to draw the blue print. And trust me this is not as easy as it sounds! Perhaps you start drawing what you want, but then you think about who or what you want to include in this and you realize you have to make room for it, create space and time so that everything and everyone fits in smoothly. Just as you have to consider lighting, and closet space, and how many bedrooms and also what you can afford when designing a home, in your life blue print you need to consider the relationships you want to have, career, kids, and many other factors. Those of us who wish to share our lives with a mate also have to consider their life plans and how they will mesh with ours and ours with theirs too. And be sure to use a pencil because things ALWAYS change!

Currently I am working on really considering what exactly I want in regards to a romantic relationship and how it fits with my life plan. I had this grand list of what I wanted and thought I really needed in a man but after finishing Fearless Loving, and also the time I have spent with my ex lately, I see that perhaps I can revise that plan. For example he asked me if I wanted to go and spend at least part of his vacation with him. Every year he goes to a lovely wilderness destination, one that he couldn’t wait to show off to me when we first started dating. I must admit it’s lovely..but…..it just doesn’t have the appeal to this now Jersey Girl, who was raised on a farm in Ohio and had her fill of the great outdoors, thank you very much, as it does to him. I did though always enjoy being with him as truly that’s the most important thing to me, and compromise is crucial. So what first was a solid no turned into a let me think about it. I also got to thinking and realized that some of the things I had put on my to do list for my life like mountain biking, hiking, spending time in nature, were all things that I could do there. So I told him I think I can go! But he threw in an unexpected condition, one that related to the reason I broke up with him 3 yrs ago and I almost threw in the towel on this…..but…..a light bulb went off in my head (all the signs and messages I got from my angels and spirit guides nudging me) and I started thinking about this supposedly “deal beaker” issue, and then I thought about all the really great things I was experiencing recently with him that I hadn't taken enough notice of the first time around and I gotta admit, the scales were tipping more in the positive despite this issue that I had thought I just can’t live with. It’s amazing how things change when you look at something or someone with new eyes! My perspective truly has shifted in three years, I have moved along my path and grown and evolved and well I am not the same person I was before and I realized I left him because I thought HE needed to change (and he did) but I also see that I needed to change also. Now I don’t know if all this means he is the one after all, there are many complications to sort through, and I am taking Rhonda’s advice from the book and dating and spending time and considering different people, but I must admit there’s a seed of hope here…..

So this weekend I am going to see Meatloaf with some friends at an outdoor concert, and BBQ with Beth who has become a very dear spiritual companion and fellow Reiki Master, It’s amazing how parallel our lives are right now and how beneficial it is to have someone to learn with. And also, despite the fact that it was very difficult, and took much compromise due to busy and practically opposite work and social schedules, my ex and I set aside some time to get together. The Harmonic Convergence also takes place this weekend and I hope everyone is ready for what’s coming! Spend some real time drawing your blue prints, re-evaluating your must-haves against your not-so important s, see where you can create unity and peaceful unions in your life, open up and step into the waves, and plant those seeds for your futures!

With Love and in The Light, Cassie

I Would Do Anything For Love

The seed cannot know what is going to happen; the seed has never known the flower. And the seed cannot even believe that he has the potentiality to become a beautiful flower. Long is the journey, and it is always safer not to go on that journey because unknown is the path, nothing is guaranteed.

Nothing can be guaranteed. Thousand and one are the hazards of the journey, many are the pitfalls - and the seed is secure, hidden inside a hard core. But the seed tries, it makes an effort; it drops the hard shell which is its security, it starts moving. Immediately the fight starts: the struggle with the soil, with the stones, with the rocks. And the seed was very hard and the sprout will be very, very soft and dangers will be many.

There was no danger for the seed, the seed could have survived for millennia, but for the sprout many are the dangers. But the sprout starts towards the unknown, towards the sun, towards the source of light, not knowing where, not knowing why. Great is the cross to be carried, but a dream possesses the seed and the seed moves.

The same is the path for man. It is arduous. Much courage will be needed. ~Osho~