9-19-10
What a lovely weekend I have had I truly do have a wonderful life! It started off on Thursday when I went to go see Beth for a Reiki treatment. I was really in need of an energy burst and a healing after the pain of Randy, I am tired of sneaking about and living this way and I am tired of living with secrets and lies even if he's the one who's telling them I can't tell my friends about who I am with and that's so against who I am. I don't lie and I am not going to now, I have always been one to advise my meetup friends that if you date there's no reason to tell everyone in the first few months, but after that if one wants to keep it secret then they don't care enough about you and you aren't valuing yourself if you allow it.
But anyway back to my treatment. Beth told me it was time for me to open the gate and start using my powers. I told her I didn't really want to because it really is true, with great power comes great responsibility. I am not ready to do this yet, not until I have a man in my life who can ground me I told her. She said she gets that but still its time to open it up, so standing outside saying good bye I said OK I will, and we talked of how she knew she was called to live where she is to bring healing and I said yep that's why I am called to Keyport...she said you know it really could be two more years before you have your mate. So not fair I tell her, but he would just distract you from your work she told me...you need to make some more female friends she reminded me, oh you know I have few of them, so many are so catty ya know...not all she said give it some thought....
That night sitting at the computer I smelled cigarettes smoke in my face, I knew it was Gus, my ex-husband. The reason I knew this was because he came around when I was dating Randy and that's how he got my attention. So I said out-loud, what do you want and why are you still here after I sent you away? In my head I hear: I have something to tell you. Oh all right what I said tersely...but there was nothing else, it was if one of my protectors had whisked him away. Mary said he used to tell her that he liked Randy for me, said he was comfortable for me, then again he's a young soul and not prone to looking at the big picture yet...
Friday was the big day! My friends came and picked me up for our big camping trip to Cape May. I tell you I was in heaven all weekend! First off I did NOT have to drive! And Stacey and Lucy were so sweet and so kind, we all thought of each other and got along well and helped one another. Heck I turned my back and my bags were loaded and unloaded! The cabin stayed clean and I didn't have to pick up after anyone else! A start contrast to the overflowing garbage and the sink full of dishes I came home to!
This whole trip was full of caring loving working together people. Everyone brought food, cooked, cleaned contributed, worked together. No one came and sat on their behinds with an empty plate held out. (not that they too would not have been fed), but I think I was in heaven! I just had to sit down at the big community dining table (we had at least 50 campers in our group) and food was put in front of me! Most of this group the people are from eastern PA and they remind me so of going back home to Ohio, where people actually still cook meals and you sit down and food is placed before you, tons and tons and tons of really good food homemade food too. I kept going over and hugging Eric the leader thanking him.
There was plenty of entertainment too, one night we went for a dolphin watching cruise that was amazing. I tossed a couple SpiritStones into the water and I swear they jumped a bit more wiggling thier tails in gratitude for the extra energy. We also had campfires to sit around, card games to play, one guy brought a karaoke set up complete with disco lights so we could sing and dance in the woods! Hey you didn't think I went wilderness camping did ya? No our cute little cabin had beds, a fridge, AC and even a TV! The only bad thing was getting up and walking down to the restroom in the night. I don't know which trip was worse, the middle of the night one where I woke up with a leg cramp or the post-dawn one where I'd had to go past the row of cabins and many friends were up saying good morning Cassie and I didn't want to wake up yet. Not all had cabins though some had campers and some had tents. I sure miss my camping days....my next husband I truly hope loves camping. I even had a whisper in my ear of someone I bet ya was his grandma again saying: tell him to buy a campground, run it and snowmobile in winter when closed--i texted him that and got an Oh and a feeling he didn't want me planning his life..
Saturday we went to Wildwood board walk and I got a palm reading, she told me pretty much the same as all the others, that Randy loves me and we will grow old together but it will be two more years at least until we are together, but she did tell me to trust him. I did text him that later and said wish I understood why-- he said maybe sooner........well your maybe always seem to be no's now days I told him. I went to go sing karaoke and the next song was "Lucille", and I knew that he was staying cuz he thinks they need him to support them. I thought well maybe she is mentally or physically handicapped in some way and needs him to support her and her kids....but later walking back to sleep someone whispered in my ear (probably his grandma) Tell him to stop working two jobs and paying all the bills and she'll leave fast. I thought about sending him that message and then recalled how I felt he didn't want me telling him what to do and I said to the spirit or who ever YOU go tell him yourself, he can hear you the same as I can I got my own life to worry about! And I do too! And work to help others too, people who need help not people who are capable of doing for themselves and are just lazy.
I did a lot of angel card readings saturday night too, and at the end of each reading I charged an SpiritStone with a special intention. It was very very rewarding and funny how basically we all have the same questions, job, kids, love......and basically the same or similar answers. For jobs it was set an intention and follow signs, for kids it was to let them go (most of us are 40s/50's) and trust we raised em right, for love it was to forgive the past and our ex'es..... I did have one challenge though, one lady watched the readings and paid very close attention and finally asked: I am an Atheist is it possible to read me she said? Well I thought about it and she could tell I was looking for a sincere and thoughtful reply for her and I said well I personally believe in God and the Angels and when I get my messages for you I feel they come from there, but I read for all faiths and I tell them to feel the answers come from whatever higher power they believe in, so what do you believe in:, where do you think all this (motioning around the woods and trees and stars and people) where do you think this came from? She said she believes in science, and she thinks the big bang created all of this. OK well if you want a reading I am more than happy to read you and when I say the angles you stick in whatever you want OK? She was happy with that and also her reading and I think she beamed as much as anyone when I gave her SpiritStone to her after wards.
This morning getting ready to come home and saying our good byes I thought wow this is community, loving caring people all working together to help each other. I so wish it was this way now in real life, instead of everyone having a hand out wanting to take and not thinking enough of what they can give. I see too that I do have to find my King, the one who is going to work side by side with me to help many instead of just a few..... But for now I must keep going on alone.... I came home to a pile of dirty dishes, garbage overflowing and the furniture not brought in from the rain as I had asked of my son. I called Verizon and had his phone turned off till he does his fair share around here. Its gonna be lonely with out my kid but its time to cut the strings and let him grow up and be more responsible.
I did get a text from Randy, and we texted back and forth some, saying how lonely he was at Sandy Hook , go home to your "wife" I told him summers over......You dumping me he asked? Let me know when you are free from her I said right now I don't know what I am doing I texted..........and I don't but I do know I am going to be real, I am not going to lie and I am not going to sneak around with a man who's got a pretend wife and hungry kids who need him (ir use him), and I am going to grow and I am going to be a helper to the one's who deserve it and leave the selfish ones behind, brushing the dust of them off my feet and going onward on my path.....
Today take a look around your life and see who needs a helping hand, a little time a little attention. Also take a look and see who's taking and not giving anything back even if they are able bodied. Are they using the tools God gave them or are they sitting there next to a pile of lumber, a box of nails and hammer and wondering when someone's going to take them in and provide for them? Rough times are coming, we must all work together and we must get on those who have lazed around too long.......everyone needs to help one another and everyone needs to do their fair share...
With Love and in the Light, Cassie
Lucille
PS almost forgot
made many close girlfriends this weekend, and got even closer to some I already had
and the lady who read my palms turns out she know all about the stones and liked my business.. I gave her a card and offered her some free blog space to give online readings and also teach you all about the stones....its all about community--when you give you receive, when you take you loose...
this is me with my cabin mates
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